To really mean it

to have lost or to have long-forgotten my existential dread
to have a family. to spend a significant amount of time with your family.
to have loved you
to have friends you won't often need, and won't often need you.
to sleep soundly at night.
to have an occupation that nurtures a good heart, that genuinely connects you to people
to (occasionally) drink and be merry
to (even if I'm gaining weight), keep running
to never seem to run out of good reads and good music
to live and tell a good story
to listen more
to think openly, respectfully of everyone
to want for everyone, whatever you want for yourself
to never hurt anyone
to simplify the way we all live
to forget all our desires
to remember that while none of all this matters, we will persist to live meaningfully.